my reaction to everyone with feelings

Reblogged from fyspringfield, 4,460 notes, December 6, 2013

this whole summer thing, I’m not a fan.I’m now back and settled in London, from being in South Africa for a month. I really should have stayed there longer. It’s absolutely beautiful, and the weather is a lot more bearable. Trying to get my life back on track is frustrating. Applied to school, which I’m hoping is finally the school I’ll actually be starting, found a place to live, and now, all I have to do, is find a job. Usually, when I’d be in search of a job, and go out there handing out those resumes, and filling out all the applications, it wasn’t long at all until I got that call, and started working the next day. now, it’s been a completely different story. I’ve been back in Ontario now for coming close to a month. Still no call, and numerous places have received my application. I am going crazy here sitting around, waiting. It’s hard to go out and do anything, since I left all my money back in Africa..Today is going to be the day guys. I can feel it. Moments from now, my phone is going to ring, and some lucky place is going to have a new employee by the name of Ashleigh. I can feel it. but for now, I shall melt away in this heat.  

this whole summer thing, I’m not a fan.
I’m now back and settled in London, from being in South Africa for a month. I really should have stayed there longer. It’s absolutely beautiful, and the weather is a lot more bearable. 
Trying to get my life back on track is frustrating.
Applied to school, which I’m hoping is finally the school I’ll actually be starting, found a place to live, and now, all I have to do, is find a job.
Usually, when I’d be in search of a job, and go out there handing out those resumes, and filling out all the applications, it wasn’t long at all until I got that call, and started working the next day.
now, it’s been a completely different story.
I’ve been back in Ontario now for coming close to a month.
Still no call, and numerous places have received my application.
I am going crazy here sitting around, waiting.
It’s hard to go out and do anything, since I left all my money back in Africa..
Today is going to be the day guys.
I can feel it.
Moments from now, my phone is going to ring, and some lucky place is going to have a new employee by the name of Ashleigh.
I can feel it.
but for now, I shall melt away in this heat.  

0 notes, July 15, 2013

A Blog in the Bathtub. 
Lately, i’m beginning to feel more at home here in BC, and am getting a nervous excited feeling about going home. I’m dying to see my family, because it’s almost been a year since I’ve seen them, and so many of my friends, but I don’t want to leave the family and friends that I’ve become so close with here. who ever said it was a good idea to move across the country for a year, and meet all these wicked people, and start a part time new life. however, nothing is going to change my mind about going home. it’s happening. (mostly because I have a ticket purchased, and plans all arranged). but also because I really love my family so very much, and can’t stand being away from them any longer. I know that some people grow up, and go move off far away, and while that’s great for them, I don’t think I’m going to be that person. a bus ride away is far enough for me. First of all, let’s talk about the fact that my father, the guy who is my whole life and more, i’ve never, in my life, been away from him for this long. It’s weird, and it’s killing me. I usually see him multiple times in a month, and the least, once a month. This whole, 8 months thing, is ridiculous. Now, as much as that part is weird for me and my dad, it’s not as weird for my mom and i. Granted, I’ve never gone 8 months without seeing her. But we have gone for months at a time between visits. But, there was always that possibility for a spontaneous visit. Now, I can’t be so spontaneous. I talk to her almost everyday on the phone, but that is no where near the same as sitting down with her for dinner, or just hanging out and watching movies. My mother is the lady I look up to, and love and cherish more than life itself. A life without my mother is no life at all. I need her for so many things, nothing big or important, but just the being there. She is my rock. Needless to say, these next few months left here are not going to be just swept under the rug. I’m going to fully take advantage of being here while I can, before I return back to the loving arms of my familiarity, which, for once, I’m really looking forward to.

A Blog in the Bathtub.

Lately, i’m beginning to feel more at home here in BC, and am getting a nervous excited feeling about going home. I’m dying to see my family, because it’s almost been a year since I’ve seen them, and so many of my friends, but I don’t want to leave the family and friends that I’ve become so close with here.
who ever said it was a good idea to move across the country for a year, and meet all these wicked people, and start a part time new life.
however, nothing is going to change my mind about going home.
it’s happening. (mostly because I have a ticket purchased, and plans all arranged). but also because I really love my family so very much, and can’t stand being away from them any longer.
I know that some people grow up, and go move off far away, and while that’s great for them, I don’t think I’m going to be that person.
a bus ride away is far enough for me.
First of all, let’s talk about the fact that my father, the guy who is my whole life and more, i’ve never, in my life, been away from him for this long. It’s weird, and it’s killing me. I usually see him multiple times in a month, and the least, once a month. This whole, 8 months thing, is ridiculous.
Now, as much as that part is weird for me and my dad, it’s not as weird for my mom and i. Granted, I’ve never gone 8 months without seeing her. But we have gone for months at a time between visits. But, there was always that possibility for a spontaneous visit. Now, I can’t be so spontaneous. I talk to her almost everyday on the phone, but that is no where near the same as sitting down with her for dinner, or just hanging out and watching movies. My mother is the lady I look up to, and love and cherish more than life itself. A life without my mother is no life at all. I need her for so many things, nothing big or important, but just the being there. She is my rock.
Needless to say, these next few months left here are not going to be just swept under the rug. I’m going to fully take advantage of being here while I can, before I return back to the loving arms of my familiarity, which, for once, I’m really looking forward to.

0 notes, March 2, 2013

just hangin’ out with ill bill and vinnie paz.
quite possibly one of the best nights ever.
such a killer show.
vancouver, you have treated me well !!

1 note, February 26, 2013

getting all my shit figured out. just got out of my lease early. all my flights, except the one home from africa, are booked. now, to slowly get rid of all my stuff, and figure out what I’m going to want to bring with me. can’t wait to see my parentals !!! and lots of missed friends.

getting all my shit figured out.
just got out of my lease early.
all my flights, except the one home from africa, are booked.
now, to slowly get rid of all my stuff,
and figure out what I’m going to want to bring with me.
can’t wait to see my parentals !!!
and lots of missed friends.

0 notes, February 7, 2013

oh hey. spending my birthday week drankin’ yohere’s to a brand new 22 year old.

oh hey. spending my birthday week drankin’ yo
here’s to a brand new 22 year old.

0 notes, January 14, 2013

cudi is hiding in her tent again. and mum and i have started our christmas movie list. tonight, Santa Clause. but, we will be watching them from different rooms on different ends of the country. miss her.

cudi is hiding in her tent again.
and mum and i have started our christmas movie list.
tonight, Santa Clause.
but, we will be watching them from different rooms on different ends of the country.
miss her.

1 note, December 18, 2012

Have to put on my best face for work. been coughing up my lungs all night. now, no voice, and a very soar throat. …. sent out my christmas gifts back to ontario today. good thing i waiting till now, and it cost a billion dollars. my africa trip fund is going to take a break for a couple days… also- realized how soon christmas is ! it sure is different being away from my family. happy holidays. //side note. my new mug from cirque du soleil. best night ever. such an amazing show !!! so blown away.

Have to put on my best face for work.
been coughing up my lungs all night.
now, no voice, and a very soar throat.
….
sent out my christmas gifts back to ontario today.
good thing i waiting till now, and it cost a billion dollars.
my africa trip fund is going to take a break for a couple days…
also- realized how soon christmas is !
it sure is different being away from my family.
happy holidays.

//side note. my new mug from cirque du soleil.
best night ever.
such an amazing show !!! so blown away.

0 notes, December 13, 2012

5 a.m is much too early to be waking, after getting home at 11 from work —i’m deeply unimpressed. on a better note, going to see cirque de soleil tonight !! WOOO.

5 a.m is much too early to be waking, after getting home at 11 from work —
i’m deeply unimpressed.
on a better note, going to see cirque de soleil tonight !! WOOO.

0 notes, December 5, 2012

what to do when you have 20 dollars just laying, and a coupon for 2 pizzas from domino’s for 15? well.. i think we all know that answer,cudi thinks she’s invited to this party…

what to do when you have 20 dollars just laying, and a coupon for 2 pizzas from domino’s for 15? well.. i think we all know that answer,
cudi thinks she’s invited to this party…

0 notes, December 2, 2012

hangouts with the cudz/clearly we do a lot with our days. ever since thursday, when a little birdie planted an idea in my head, i now want to own a bakery. and i just want to bake everyday now ! I LOVE BAKING !going baked goods ingredient shopping on wednesday with said little birdie ! wooooo.

hangouts with the cudz/
clearly we do a lot with our days.
ever since thursday, when a little birdie planted an idea in my head, i now want to own a bakery.
and i just want to bake everyday now !
I LOVE BAKING !
going baked goods ingredient shopping on wednesday with said little birdie ! wooooo.

0 notes, December 1, 2012

my mom sent me christmas socks. i’m super happy about it !!!
—-also, it’s starting to piss me off to the extreme how some people are SO full of themselves. SHUT UP !!!!!!

my mom sent me christmas socks.
i’m super happy about it !!!

—-also, it’s starting to piss me off to the extreme how some people are SO full of themselves.
SHUT UP !!!!!!

0 notes, November 29, 2012

i lost my pencil sharpener, and to be quite honest, i’m really upset about it. but on a more serious note, I start school in January, and slowly work towards getting back on track. my travel plans begin in May. and end in June where I will stay in Cape Town for 3 weeks teaching. i’ve been laying in bed all day, drawing faceless portraits with a dull pencil, listening to Army of The Pharaohs on repeat. day well spent Ashleigh

i lost my pencil sharpener, and to be quite honest, i’m really upset about it.
but on a more serious note, I start school in January, and slowly work towards getting back on track.
my travel plans begin in May. and end in June where I will stay in Cape Town for 3 weeks teaching.
i’ve been laying in bed all day, drawing faceless portraits with a dull pencil, listening to Army of The Pharaohs on repeat.
day well spent Ashleigh

0 notes, November 19, 2012

i wake up at 5 am every morning now..with or without my alarm.i am somehow, still not used to it.but i can’t get rid of it. forever drinking that black coffee.. on a side note— almost done all my christmas shopping. earliest I’ve ever gotten christmas together, but i have to make sure it’s all in the mail, and headed out at an early enough date to get to all the awaiting homes. i feel like santa clause, and the mail men are my elves delivering the presents….. annnnd off to work I go. another side note. today is remembrance day. lest we forget.. does anyone else remember having to memorize the poem, In Flanders Fields.We learned it in a song in grade 8, to better remember it. I could probably recite it at any given time on question.In Flanders fields the poppies blowBetween the crosses, row on row,That mark our place and in the skyThe larks, still bravely singing, flyScarce heard amid the guns below. We are the Dead. short days ago We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glowLoved and were loved, and now we lieIn Flanders fields. Take up our quarrel with the foe: To you from failing hands we throwThe torch be yours to hold it high. If ye break faith with us who die We shall not sleep though poppies grow In Flanders fields.

i wake up at 5 am every morning now..
with or without my alarm.
i am somehow, still not used to it.
but i can’t get rid of it.
forever drinking that black coffee..

on a side note— almost done all my christmas shopping. earliest I’ve ever gotten christmas together, but i have to make sure it’s all in the mail, and headed out at an early enough date to get to all the awaiting homes. i feel like santa clause, and the mail men are my elves delivering the presents…..
annnnd off to work I go.

another side note. today is remembrance day. lest we forget..
does anyone else remember having to memorize the poem, In Flanders Fields.
We learned it in a song in grade 8, to better remember it.
I could probably recite it at any given time on question.

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,

That mark our place and in the sky

The larks, still bravely singing, fly

Scarce heard amid the guns below.


We are the Dead. short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow
Loved and were loved, and now we lie

In Flanders fields.


Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch be yours to hold it high.

If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

0 notes, November 11, 2012

uhm…so 225 more days (7months) till i’m in south africa. basically… i’m a little excited. :Dalso…cudi and i have been laying in bed all day while we get 50-70mm of rain !tomorrow. school planning time !!!!!

uhm…so 225 more days (7months) till i’m in south africa.
basically… i’m a little excited. :D
also…cudi and i have been laying in bed all day while we get 50-70mm of rain !
tomorrow. school planning time !!!!!

0 notes, November 1, 2012